Monthly Archives: January 2012

spill your secrets, thoughts and everything else to someone worth telling, someone who wants to listen. yet this only makes you feel more vulnerable, more empty. feels like a part of your soul is lost, have you shared too much about yourself. but nobody will know you as much as you think you know yourself. he sleeps beside you, he is most beautiful when asleep, he is more than half of your world. but you are careful, maybe a bit too cautious, of what this is. of what this is becoming. how is it that you know so much about someone

and know nothing at all


so i keep you locked away, empty everything into a jar, screw the lid shut and place it in the furthest corner. over time dust settles on the lid and everything is forgotten

but be it in furthest corner or in plain sight, the jar remains

whole afternoon spent at the art-science museum with (undisclosed name) who i last saw exactly a week ago, before we went into the titanic exhibition one of the staff gave us both cards and told us that the profiles found on the cards were actual people who went on board the titanic and that at the end of the exhibition we will found out whether we survived or perished. i was a seven year old child and i survived.


they love you, then they leave you. eventually everybody leaves. but i can’t keep you, if you don’t want to stay. so i watch you walk further away, far away from everything i knew. all that i know is gone, is lost

so i start from the beginning. again


“My Dearest Allie.

I couldn’t sleep last night because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I’ll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that’s what you’ve given me. That’s what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I’ll be seeing you.



have the sudden urge to rewatch this along with all my favorite movies. 11 more months to curling up on the bed with the notebook, up, the holiday, the parent trap, resident evil, lotr!!!, matrix, himym, gossip girl and tbbt